Since I have started on my own healing journey I have developed a sense of intuitiveness and I have really been tapped in to seeing messages or signs and I often take most things as a sign even if it isn't. Sometimes things will happen to teach me or guide me other times it may be just part of the process that I am needing to go on. Today I just wanted to write about an experience that I had when I was out walking this morning.
So I will start back a few days ago I had that feeling of when I first started tapping into my spirituality that there was something deep happening with me. It made me feel sad, flat, down and kind of dark. I was really struggling with what the hell was wrong with me. I was on holidays and taking the much needed time for me to get some time just for me. I wanted to purge every thing, I threw out all the old stuff that I didn't want or need and re organised my closet and my kitchen to bring in space. I don't normally dwell or feel like shit for more than an hour or so but this hung on. Just like when I felt the calling to deep dive into my spiritual journey. Well in hindsight (I am in a much better frame of mind this morning) I am in another cycle. The first cycle was merely starting this journey into finding who I am and why I do what I do (still learning about that) but also finding out that I have held on to so much stuff. I am here trying to help women feel good and create balance within themselves and their holistic health and I feel like a fraud. I feel as if I talk the talk but don't walk the walk. I thought that I had dealt with a lot of issues around my body and my food and why I turn to food for comfort but in truth I have not dealt with that at all. I have brushed over it and now is the time to get real with it and to release it from my life. So I feel that is what has come up for me over the past few days. In saying that about feeling a fraud. I only speak the truth but in saying that I hadn't come to terms with my truth as yet.
So this morning I woke up with a renewed energy. I try to do some NLP work on myself while lying in bed and also meditation and visualisation. I have been reading You can heal your life by Louise Hay and so much of that make so much sense. I chose to listen to Sia this morning and as I was walking the song Flames came on and in it there is so much I needed to hear. Here are the words. You will notice a pattern in both songs. Verse 1: Sia]
One foot in front of the other babe
One breath leads to another, yeah
Just keep moving, oh Look within for the strength today
Listen out for the voice to say
Just keep moving,
oh[Pre-Chorus: Sia]
Go, go, go
Figure it out, figure it out, but don't stop moving
Go, go, go
Figure it out, figure it out, you can do this
[Chorus: Sia]
So my love, keep on running
You gotta get through today
There my love, keep on running
Gotta keep those tears at bay
Oh, my love, don't stop burning
Gonna send them up in flames
In flames
[Verse 2: Sia]
Don't stop, tomorrow's another day
Don't stop, tomorrow you'll feel no pain
Just keep moving
Don't stop the past
it'll trip you up
You know, right now's gotta be enough
Just keep moving
[Pre-Chorus: Sia]
Go, go, go
Figure it out, figure it out, but don't stop moving
Go, go, go
Figure it out, figure it out, you can do this
[Chorus: Sia]
So my love, keep on running
You gotta get through today
There my love, keep on running
Gotta keep those tears at bay
Oh, my love, don't stop burning
Gonna send them up in flames
In flames[Bridge: Sia]
In flames
In flames
Go, go, go
Figure it out, figure it out, but don't stop moving
Go, go, go
Figure it out, figure it out, you can do this
[Chorus: Sia]
So my love, keep on running
You gotta get through today
Then my love, keep on running
Gotta keep those tears at bay
Oh, my love, don't stop burning
Gonna send them up in flames
In flames
Now as if that is enough then the song Grab and Angel by the wings came on.
Here are the words of that song:
Old soul, your wounds they show I know, you have never felt so low But hold on, head up, be strong Oh, hold on Hold on until you hear them come Here they come oh Take an angel by the wings Beg her now for anything Beg her now for one more day Take an angel by the wings Time to tell her everything Ask her for the strength to stay Oooooooh Oooooooh Oooooooh Oooooooh [repeat] You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything Look up, call to the sky, oh Look up, and don’t ask why Oh Just take an angel by the wings Beg her now for anything Beg her now for one more day Take an angel by the wings Time to tell her everything Ask her for the strength to stay Oooooooh Oooooooh Oooooooh Oooooooh [repeat] You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything You can, you can Do anything, anything You can, do anything
So I found myself full body Goosebumps looking at the sky and talking ( lucky I was not in a populated area) to my angels. I was asking for guidance and had this overwhelming feeling that the life I am setting out for the life that I so long to have is going to be just that. My life, my reality.
It was the most wonderful experience and nothing like I have felt before. I am certain that the message was there for me and just at the right time.
So it really pays to trust the process. I am looking forward to my deep diving and removing the blocks that are holding me back from being the best version of my possible and creating my best life possible. I had to share. I know this may be WOO WOO for some but this is my story and my journey and I only tell it like it is for me.
Erin.